The answer is that I have no idea. I struggle with knowing where I want to be in one year or even next week. I don't mean where physically. I mean in terms of various aspects of my life.
The second session of my Managing Depression group was about increasing activity. Part of the "homework" was to brainstorm on this subject. I find it very difficult to know what I want. I think this is a big factor in my depression. I think that hope comes from having goals. Even though I was not having luck finding work, it was a goal. I gave up on job hunting because of the stress it was causing. I had failed to realize that job hunting had been my major goal. I am sure it is more complicated than that.
A lot has happened since I stopped job hunting. I am not sure it is as simple as restarting job hunting. I do have to review my options.