Thursday, 20 October 2011

2011 : A Difficult Year

2010 was not a great year. I was taking new medication that didn't seem to be suiting me. I was suffering a lot of anxiety and I canceled a lot of important things. On a day in the first week of 2011, I went into a manic state. I deluded myself that I was "OK" and made some inappropriate plans. The manic state finally diminished in April or May. I got very depressed and I had to cancel the inappropriate plans. I needed support from the Crisis Team to get me through this period.

I have been a lot more stable since August but I struggle more and more to get out of the apartment/flat. As my sleep has improved, I have felt slowly better but I need occasional sleep medication. Several days of poor sleep leads to returning symptoms, especially in the mornings.

I won't be sorry to get into 2012. I will be able to resolve my personal financial situation. I seem to be a bit in limbo at the moment.

The good news is that I have been feeling brighter this last week. This is ironic because the mornings and evenings are getting darker by the day. I did get into town once this week. For me, this is progress. It has always been two steps forward followed by one back. I just need patience. Having a cpn (community psychiatric nurse)has been very helpful.

Regards,
Clive

4 comments:

  1. Have you tried adding melatonin to help you sleep? It seems to work well for me since I stopped my sleepy meds. One way to look at 2 steps forward and 1 step back is that you're still ahead by 1 step, right? (I can subtract, can't I?)

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  2. Hi Sheri, Yes you can subtract, LOL. I can't read because I had read Melatonin as meditation !! I heard it works but we can't buy it in UK for some reason. I did want to try it.
    {hugs}
    Clive

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  3. You people are blessed!
    We had no knowledge of what a community psychiatry nurse is!
    We pay lots of taxes for Malaysian government to squander.
    They don't take care of us in this way.
    We have no such facility.
    Don't believe the media here.
    Believe the real sufferer.

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  4. You people are blessed!
    We had no knowledge of what a community psychiatry nurse is!
    We pay lots of taxes for Malaysian government to squander.
    They don't take care of us in this way.
    We have no such facility.
    Don't believe the media here.
    Believe the real sufferer.

    ReplyDelete

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